Well, I had another not so brilliant night. Again I woke up around 1am and then was pretty restless the rest of the night. I feel pretty wiped out and need to get it together. I turned on the TV and found the Disney channel. Mickey Mouse and his friends were doing their gay little dance and I just lost it. The tears started and I am just a weepy mess. I need to get it out of my system and pull myself together. I have to push out all the negative thoughts that are creeping in, put my big girl panties on, and deal with it.
I just really miss Bill and Gwennie. I know they are perfectly fine, but right now I just feel pretty alone. I feel like the old lady in the group out here! I am the only one who is married and has a child and I don’t feel like I have anyone with whom I can relate to.
I know this is just a blip on the radar and I was warned by the girls at the Orlando studio at there would be days like this! I just didn’t expect it to hit me quite so soon.
OK, time to put on my make-up and my smile and suck it up. I can do this!